Time away

My trip home is approaching and I'm realizing more and more everyday how much I need the time away. Time away from roommates, work basically life in general. Something had definitely made me pull away from everyone lately and I feel the tension in my house growing everyday. I really want to talk to my roommate/best friend but she has put her wall up and is very defensive with me. I think the time apart will be good for everyone involved.

I am looking forward to the very short trip home and when I get back my roommates will be leaving for a trip of their own to NC. I think alot of my pulling away started right before I moved when everyone came to visit me, I had just started dating R, work was getting super busy and I just felt like I was being pulled in a million different directions. I am the yes girl. I always go along with everyone and I think when I finally stand up and say NO I'm going to do what I want for a change people freak out and don't know what to do with me. I just hope that after all of the time and space my friendship is still repairable. I'm going to take some time to reflect at home and that is a great place for me to do that.

I think we all need some time to ourselves and unfortunately I am dealing with something much harder to get through than I could have ever imagined. Each day is a little easier, I'm really hoping this trip home is holding some of the self healing I am searching for.....