Never thought I'd say this....

...but, I'm homesick. I realized it the other day. I've been really sad lately and couldn't really put my finger on it until I talked to my mom and I felt like crying. I haven't been back to my hometown in almost a year (last x-mas to be exact.) I think I really realized it when my roommate and her sister go off to do their family things on Sundays sometimes and I realize that I don't have any family here. Now, not that I would be doing "family" things back in Illinois because I don't have that kind of family, but regardless I miss home. I can't believe it. I think another part of it is the holidays are coming and my mom is getting older and it makes me wonder how many I will have with her?? I could technically go home for Thanksgiving I have black friday off, unfortunately I can't afford it. I don't really know what to do with this homesickness. I was down here for 6 months before and couldn't go home and I was fine, hell i've been fine not going home for this long, why now????? It's so funny to me because people always say they wish they were only children and I always tell them really, no you don't. Even if you don't always get along with your siblings at least you have them. It was my choice to move so far away and 99.9% of the time I am overjoyed with this decision, but I guess sometimes that 1% gets me.